I think I'm running out of topic to blog about...Come to think of it, I haven't been blogging about anything interesting at all. My post consists of mostly whining how life sucks.

so, today's post is about something random.

we'll start with people.

You know, there are many ways to tackle this topic...optimists would say that it's people that makes life great and the world a more colourful place to live in.

Well, I beg to differ.

Ok, so, I side with the pessimists. Shoot me.

really, optimists look at the world this way:

EVERYONE IS GOOD, NICE, HONEST AND KIND.

My advise is: WAKE UP!

People are made of lies. Yes, they lie, cheat, trick, do something wrong but get somebody else to take the blame.

that's people for you.

you might say it's all about the upbringing. How well children are brought up may influence but not much really.

People find it a necessity to be evil. It's nature. It's as vital as breathing itself. Don't believe me?
Ask yourself:
Have you lied for your convenience before?
Have you ever been stupidly honest and straightforward with every acquaintance you got? You see a homeless guy dressed in dirty rags and begging for money on the street. Do you help him? Back in school, how many times have you talked about something really bad about someone else behind their backs?
How many people have you shunned just because they are not pretty, rich or smart?
How many times have you lied and pretend to be not you to be included in the "in" crowd?
How many times have you lied to create a "godly" image of yourself (when obviously you're not) so that you're accepted in society?

you have quite a lot of sins, don't you?

Don't bluff me.

This is people. If you don't have sins, you're not a person. You'll be a god, a martyr. Not many humans are all good. I've met one or two who are close to martyrdom but they're always picked on by people.

That's why I'm fed up with all the lies, cheating, acting, faking and goodness knows what else is going out there in the world. That's why I retreated into my own little haven 3 years back. It was safe. As a lone ranger, I'm never stung, have not hated, cried or angered. Ex-classmates, if you're reading this, you should remember that I was always, always doing homework or wandering around by myself. I have very few friends. I was always guarded. Nobody knows very much about me and I was very happy with that.

Until I met this bunch of guys and 4 girls in my class, I was pretty confident of my 'self-armor'. They kind of broke it. They are really nice bunch of kids. They made me see that there are some small glimmer of good in people. You just need to bring that out. But when people turn nasty, you'll just have to lash out and show some colours.

Then, I started mixing with people.

No, they have not changed me essentially. I still believe that all the unhappiness, turmoil, suffering and insecurity are caused by people. However, this bunch of good friends made me see a little hope.

Too bad that they're all over the world now...Chances of meeting them are pretty slim. LOL

I know this post is a little late. After all, I met Padma last Thursday. I should have posted this immediately when I got back to campus but I was busy. (since when I'm not?) And I have been recharging my battery since I got back home...I sleep almost the whole day. Even now, I'm suppose to get on with my accounting assignment but I'm blogging. Oh, what the heck.

I've no idea why am I freaking busy this semester to the point that I have no time for myself. My hair is like a tangled bush. My eyebags deepened! T.T (I think it's probably of the guy...I think we're having way too many discussions for one task...It's eating into my nap, breaks, anime-watching and snacking time.) Not to mention I've had diarrhea more frequently too. That's how I got dehydrated, nose bleeds, woozy in the stupid bathroom (oh, this is normal for me) and got sick. That's why I keep plonking myself on my bee-ooo-tiful bed every chance I get since I got home. I wonder how much hutang tidur I've been owing my body. I haven't even cleared the outstanding sleep debt that I incurred for HSC!!!

Woops. I've sidetracked.

OK, rewind. Back to the story.

Padma.

Right, she was one of my besties in primary school. Yeah, I used to be in the Sarah Chen, Michelle Poh and Eileen Tan gang. *rolls eyes* Don't ask me why I was with them. It's like seeing "Mean Girls" Live. Seriously. They have everything (okay, she has everything) - the scorn, biting retorts, grudges, gossips, etc...Padma was my sole comfort. Oops, I forgot Fadilah. She was my bestest ever malay friend. Both of them were very open-minded, fun, carefree and outgoing friends. Netball freaks. Jokers. Outdoor type. I LOVE them. I will never forget them.

Imagine what I felt like when Padma said she wanted to meet up with me...I was euphoric!

I'm not joking.

I was so hyped up that I can't think about anything else. There was turmoil broiling among classmates that day too and I hardly noticed! LOL.

She's on the left. The one the right is Anna, her roommate.
(Ok, so I used a super-old photo from her friendster because I forgot to take a photo with her. Shoot me.)

We had dinner at Oasis. She simply loves Arabic food. She's under JPA scholarship, studying A-Levels at....dang! I can't remember the name of her college...again! It's in sepang, though. Wai Tseung and Siti Liyana is there too!

So, we spent 2 hours of gossiping and catching up. I can't believe how we can lost contact for almost 7 years! Goodness! There's so much to catch up.

Wai Tseung is popular amongst girls in her college! o.O They're jealous cuz Padma can talk to him while he ignores the rest of them!

Ganesha is in India studying medicine.

All these peeps are gonna be doctors one day. Best of luck!

Gotta go. I'll update something soon. vern~
p.s. My video has finished streaming... XP

After 19 years and I still discover new wonders about myself

1. I sleepwalk and talk in my sleep. (My roommate did mention to me that I sometimes sat up very quickly in the middle of the night and reached out for something on the table then go back to sleep. My sis also says that I did that while mumbling about calculating something. I must be really stressed.)

2. I won't know when I'm sick unless I can't move from the bed any longer.

3. Washing clothes by hand is a very effective way of channeling out my frustration.

4. I simply LOVE to sleep

5. I think I've unconsciously polished my skill of handling annoying people. I can now brush them off with little effort. (but maybe I'm only dealing with minions, not the shark. So, I really don't have that much credit).

6. I love my home :)

I despise people with no credibility.

Seriously.

I've met my share of dishonest jerks.

Somtimes, I can't understand why they just can't admit their mistake candidly. Is it so hard to accept the fact that you are wrong and say "sorry"?

The worst are those who try to hide behind the weakness of others.
They are never consistent. Their word today will be different tomorrow.
They like to hedge the truth and evade the question.

SNEAKS.

The world is just full of them.
I thought I've met my share. Looks like I was wrong.

Oh, well. I'm not bothered. It's their problem. They'll have one less friend.

Everyday is a DRAG.

I think I'm being affected by someone's emotion. I seemed overly depressed for no reason.

I hate this...

"How can I go on, I cannot. Oh just let me flop down flat on the road like a big fat jelly out of a bowl and never move again!" - Samuel Beckett

I don't want tomorrow to come

I was very miserably de-motivated this week.
Can't even compose myself to get ANY work done.

A complete wreck.

IT WAS HELL.

I was SO stupid.

Completely irrational and inconsiderate goon.

*if you don't understand, it's okay. I don't mean for you guys to understand anyway. I just wanted to rant*

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I learned a new way to de-stress:

1. tumpang cuci baju at friend's block. (thanks, Xin Tang!)
2. invite ourselves into friend's room.




I don't think I can survive this two weeks...

1. I haven't revise my week 4 lecture notes for law, so I'm as blur as a dodo bird while doing my tutorial. I'm not sure if I can hold my own during the moot court tomorrow. I need a MIRACLE.
2. I haven't done my stats online test. I'm afraid I can't do them.
3. Haven't done account and macro tute...Can hardly find time...OMG
4. Have TESTS next week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5. I can't sleep here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
6. Ken is leaving.
7. Being preyed on by mosquitoes. They are now coming in packs!

Please give me a miracle..........

I'll continue another time about my miserable life...this posts is just for me to let off steam...

but still not feeling any better

I was at my most forgetful and clumsy self this weekend. sigh.

1. Left my stats text book at the bus stop (ss14). Now it's gone.
2. Walk all the way to the bus stop in rubber slippers to look for book. So, I've earned myself blisters as big as 10 cent coins on both feet.
3. Banged a foot on the edge of my table (home). A blister broke and bled.
4. Banged my injured knee at the edge of my table (dorm). Made fresh wound. (Or did I make it bigger...?)
5. Kept tripping over bag and then hit my legs on the bed frame.

I'm annoyed at myself.

Very.

Losing my text book was the worst. Jen Chong was laughing when I first realized it was missing the day after I left it there. (He called)

*put face in hands, mumbling miserably*