As my sis has been kind enough to remind me everyday for a week before today, I'm entering the second decade of my very boring life.

UGH.

I feel old just typing that.

But this year's birthday is the best in my life.

1. Nick bought me a watch. It's not the best quality but I love it. I never knew that he noticed it's one of those things that I needed most. (Or probably my classmate has been bugging him for 2 days. SO, I can't be sure that he cares. Oh, heck, doesn't matter. He bought it FOR me. that reason enough). I'm HAPPY.

2.My classmate, Suki bought me a watch too, gave me a new haircut and a wash. blissful.
3. My classmate, christy bought me coke.
4. My teacher, May bought me chicken rice. Blissful day.
5. My parents bought me asam laksa, wo tip, sotong kangkung last saturday. Though, the asam laksa suck.
6. And many of my friends wished me happy birthday! I'm one lucky idiot.

seriously.

How can anyone not be happy with all this?

Maybe everyone else is.

But I'm super happy.

Maybe I get overjoyed over little things like this. Hey, wait, they're aren't little things...They may be simple gestures but I'm simply happy they sincerely remember my existence.

I feel appreciated for once.
4.

Life is shit.

It's the most nerve-wrecking, hideous thing ever in existence. Yes, life.

I'm exaggerating but it's generally true. Don't believe me? Read up Buddha's Five Truths. (I think it's the five truths)

I'm exuding a lot of negative energy now because I was majorly pissed off by the people at the salon - my most trusted teacher, the boss, my classmates especially this particular classmate, Jess.

What would you feel like if you've been used like a stupid loyal puppy dog? Yes, I was insanely dumb enough to obey every one of Nick's instructions like a lost puppy. I've paid full fees and I've hardly learned anything new throughout the whole Christmas week.

I haven't progress much since I first started. All I did was rebonding, rebonding, and more rebonding. It's free labour. And they are earning by using MY labour hours

What the hell am I doing giving them free labour when I have paid full fees??!!!

That's one of the lesser problems.

Jess hasn't been coming to class for 20 days. The day she comes back, she's strutting around like she owns the place.

She doesn't give a damn whether the rest gets a chance to try on live models (customers). She snatches away any interesting customers. As in, she gets to learn more new things.

Heck, MY parents paid FULL fees for me to learn whatever I can here. I don't have much time left. SHE did not GODDAMN pay a single cent and she thinks she can get all the live models for herself and learn more?

Hell, no!

I've got every goddamn right to more live models than her! I've paid more so, she should be the one giving way so that I have more opportunity to cut.

Things that she doesn't want to do like rebonding, treatment and colouring, she throws it at me. FUCK!!!!!!

It's only 2 days back, and she's already being cocky, rude and fucking prude.

What's worst - Nick's absolutely overjoyed to have her back. He couldn't care less that she'd been playing truant for the past 20 days to abort a baby. He's practically blinded to the fact that she's being unfairly bullying us just because she has 2 years of working experience.

He is wonderfully blissful, happy, I don't know how else to describe, that she's back. AND to him, our existence is no longer of any importance. the rest of us are thrown out, forgotten, to be left along to rot together with the grass.

FUCK.

FUCK.

FUCK.

I've been playing the nice person all this time, but no more. I've had enough.
I'm going to get what I've come here to get. If Jess is going to trample on my toes or get in my way (or anyone for that matter), I'm going to make sure they're going to so going to regret it.